I first started feeling uncomfortable with my appearance right around the time when puberty hit. I was average looking, but at that time is when people start to develop the idea of self-consciousness.
The way people looked at me made me second guess my looks. That, or the clothes I was wearing and the way my hair was styled. Those thoughts eventually brought on anxiety issues. I dealt with those issues by trying to fit in. Enter drugs and alcohol.
The more I used substances and got drunk, the more I gained weight. In turn, those amplified my self-esteem issues. What started as a way to avoid my mental difficulties became the reason why I did them.Read More